This week has been pretty dull. I only have 7 more weeks of pay and benefits. I'm really afraid I won't find anything. On Tuesday I applied for a job that I saw listed on Monster - that's 1 job in 7 days that I've felt qualified for. This is not a good sign! I haven't heard anything about last week's interview so I'm pretty sure I bombed it.
My master's degree isn't paying off the way I hoped it would. Sure, it allows me to go after jobs where a graduate degree is required, but most of the jobs I feel qualified for are asking for an associate's degree. I don't have enough experience for something better and I'm overqualified for the jobs I can do.
I'm debating whether I should try to go back to school. I feel like I wasted my undergrad years. I got a lot of advice that I now realize was bad and I left school with no job skills. Looking back, I wish I'd considered that it would cost me just as much tuition to study something lucrative as it did to study something easy. I also wish I wasn't so afraid of failure. I dropped out of a calculus class because I thought I was failing it, only to later realize that everyone was failing and a 50% on the midterm equaled a B in the course. I was too intimidated to try a computer or engineering class and I was too negative about myself to learn anything from aptitude tests.
I don't know if I can go back to school and pay the mortgage at the same time, and I'm not very optimistic about selling this house. My neighbor listed his house last summer for $15k less than what I currently owe on mine. He couldn't get anyone to look at it, let alone make an offer. Even if I could find a buyer then I would probably need to bring $20k to closing when you factor in commissions and fees. I don't have that kind of money!
I guess I should stop assuming the worst and really look into my options. Maybe I could go back to school while working part time and take out more student loans to cover the difference. Maybe I could find a roommate to help with the mortgage and utilities. If I really want it bad enough then I'll find a way to make it happen.