In the last 3 months we have lost 3 people at work. It's a bit strange because I feel like I'm still the newbie, still learning who people are and what they do. It doesn't seem right to be saying goodbye so soon after saying hello. Truth be told, it makes me a little anxious. What are they seeing that I'm not? Are they jumping ship before it sinks? I sure hope not.
Last night we had a farewell party for my supervisor - the man who interviewed me last October and talked about the sci fi book he was reading, who then called me in late December to offer the job after I had already received notice that I didn't get it. He's leaving to be a consultant for the company that provides our IT support. I found myself near tears several times yesterday and was baffled by that. When I left the party he hugged me and said, "I'm glad I hired you." That really made me choke up! I guess I'm afraid that whoever replaces him won't see in me what he saw. I have flaws and insecurities, I gossip, I'm impatient. I'm afraid my next supervisor will be as critical of me as I am of myself and that's a scary prospect.